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Last night was a Game Changer…as in I'm not gonna play any more. 'Pretty sure it LOOKED like Game but it wasn't.

As per previous post, I went out by myself. I was early because I wanted to say hello to the band; they're so awesomely, wonderfully, warm and charming. (I have a special place in my heart for all of the songwriters that come out on Tuesdays…I often feel like a proud parent.) Once I had my hugs, I settled in.

The bartender remembered me and asked about GP, a friend from elementary school. We hung out at the bar once in December so that was pretty amazing. So I texted him about it, he texted back…he was on a barstool next to me within the half hour.

What surprises me most about this man is the odd mix of familiarity, candor, and romance between us. We were never close as children but our lives were socially intertwined. My mother died in 1970, his in '72, our fathers were friends…we were motherless misfits of Manchaca. Odder still is that he also went to high school with Boo and will occasionally share anecdotes about him…! We know Nothing and Everything about each other.

We went outside to smoke and talk; we sat across from each other at a picnic table. I started babbling about the man I consider to be My Agitation; whining about my pining lol. I realized he was holding my hands while I was talking. When I finally paused for breath, he said to me, "Denise. What do you want me to do? Rescue you? Beat him up? … sound like choices to me."

Wow. And it made me laugh at myself because when he put it that way, I really have been stupid over someone (again) who just wasn't into me. GP's sincere interest just about made me cry. We left the picnic table with me vowing not to repeat my stupidity…

And sure enough, when we walked in, there stood My Agitation. After a round of awkward handshakes, the three of us sat at a table together. (My A had done this before with Boo; just sat with us making barely noticeable growling noises under his breath. WTF) It wasn't ridiculously awkward but damn close. And when My A finally went to leave, GP did something absolutely wonderful:

He kissed me in public.

Nothing really happened when we went to his place because of my ever erratic hormonal condition but there was lots of good old-fashioned making out. This was our third time out together and we still haven't consummated. Pretty awesome that I feel like we have.

'Like I said: it was a Game Changer.