"Just when I thought I was out...they pull me back in."

NOT! Okay, obviously just a little or I wouldn't bother putting it into words, no matter how vaguely: Much like the creaking of dead trees against the cedars at Dad's, I'm sensing a clean up ahead cuz gravity will always win. Dead things fall. 'Probably best to be cautious as to where I'm standing at any given moment. What a pain in my metaphorical ass. But luckily...

I'm continually amazed by the support I get from such a broad diversity of people...always feels like I'm their "Random Act of Kindness" for the day or something. I really struggle with accepting gifts. Working on gratitude is a much better use of my time and energy. No doubt.

Aha! That's it. I need relationships without doubt. Some people will always be just an Acquaintance to me no matter what happens one way or the other. Lose both credibility and trust with me and the boundaries are set. And then, a rare few know my heart without asking...not always the best thing btw! But the love is there and so is the good will. Most people vacillate in and out of my daily life; swaying in the weather like healthy trees. What shall I do about all that dead wood out there? Let the wind fix it?

Sounds like a plan...at least for now.

(In the spirit of dropping writing devices, I tried to remove as many proper nouns as possible. There were so many even I thought it was Pretentious. hee hee)