That went well...

So it turns out I already "own" 1.25 acres in Manchaca...as an heir. I have verbal permission to do as  I wish with the front portion. My dad and his wife seemed genuinely excited when I asked and my sister said she doesn't care. Since she could change her mind, and any number of other things could happen, I'd like to have this all signed and sealed. 'Going to keep wishing for good money juju. I want my roots in family dirt now!

And honestly, I don't know why I feel so strongly about all of this at this particular time. Maybe it's because so many wishes have been granted since I've come home...some I didn't even know I wanted. And they are all of the good wishes, too. Wishes for a greater good. Wishes I've had since childhood when I played house in the woods. Wishes to be closer to family.

I'm pressing my luck with the Great Whatever by asking for more. Or am I?  Maybe that's the whole point: I have to ask for what I want or need.

I spent most of today in the woods clearing brush from my magical spot under the live oaks and hanging out with Dad.

Thank you.

"You can wish in one hand..."

Whatever. I'm gonna make a wish anyway. I wish there would be a big enough financial windfall for me to purchase the front acre (or two) of my Dad's property. We could put in a Tiny House and soak up the Manchaca-Meredith Love while we whittle away at the mess and take care of the whole fam-damily.

It's a good wish. And out into the universe it goes...

"Just when I thought I was out...they pull me back in."

NOT! Okay, obviously just a little or I wouldn't bother putting it into words, no matter how vaguely: Much like the creaking of dead trees against the cedars at Dad's, I'm sensing a clean up ahead cuz gravity will always win. Dead things fall. 'Probably best to be cautious as to where I'm standing at any given moment. What a pain in my metaphorical ass. But luckily...

I'm continually amazed by the support I get from such a broad diversity of people...always feels like I'm their "Random Act of Kindness" for the day or something. I really struggle with accepting gifts. Working on gratitude is a much better use of my time and energy. No doubt.

Aha! That's it. I need relationships without doubt. Some people will always be just an Acquaintance to me no matter what happens one way or the other. Lose both credibility and trust with me and the boundaries are set. And then, a rare few know my heart without asking...not always the best thing btw! But the love is there and so is the good will. Most people vacillate in and out of my daily life; swaying in the weather like healthy trees. What shall I do about all that dead wood out there? Let the wind fix it?

Sounds like a plan...at least for now.

(In the spirit of dropping writing devices, I tried to remove as many proper nouns as possible. There were so many even I thought it was Pretentious. hee hee)